C'mon, live dangerously.

eccentric-edwards:

To: Clare Edwards <claretheedwards@facerange.com>
From: Darcy Edwards <cheergirl-darcy@facerange.com>

Subject: Scared, Potter?

I’ve met the best kind of people here, the ones whose hearts are purely selfless. They’ve come from every walk of life that you can imagine and exposed me to new thoughts and ideas, and I’ll be forever thankful that I was given this grand opportunity to do what I had always dreamed of doing. It cost me my relationship with Peter, but I’m praying that it didn’t cost me my relationship with you, Clare. I love you. You’re not pressing, because I’ve been missing home lately. I worry that I’ll forget how you or daddy or Mom looks if I don’t plan to come home soon.

Jamil occupies a large hunk of my attention and time. He’s formed a habit of stumbling into my room and sleeping curled against my chest every night. It’s been our routine forever, or it feels like that when, really, it’s only been seven months. He’s already a heartbreaker, and he’s amazingly smart. I’m teaching him English, ClareBear. He picks up everything incredibly quick, and I can’t tell you how impressed I am. I’m still trying to prepare myself. Having to leave him behind is going to destroy him. I love him. It was hard not to.

There’s this guy. I know, I know. He has these eyes… I have a hard time concentrating when I can literally feel him watching me. He knows Jamil. Ironically, that’s how we met. He was playing with Jamil and kicked a soccer ball (it’s Jamil’s favourite activity), hitting me in my chest hard enough to knock the breath of me. I was furious. It was hot. The sun was steadily growing warmer, but thanks to Cameron, I dropped two 13-pound water containers and completely soaked myself through to my skin. He’s sweet. He’s genuinely curious about how my life was before Kenya. He’s confident. He knows that he can get under my skin. Worse: We share a room, and until a couple of weeks ago, cuddling was comforting. It was friendly, but I don’t know. He’s like Jamil. I don’t know how I’m going to leave him, because he’s become my best friend.

Dating? Daddy? I… What? Clare… How is Mom?

Eli? Adam?

I love you.

- Darce. xo

To: Darcy Edwards <cheergirl-darcy@facerange.com>
From: Clare Edwards <claretheedwards@facerange.com>

Subject: You wish.

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I’m proud of the work you’ve done there, don’t get me wrong and I’m glad you’ve gotten the chance to experience such amazing things. And no, it hasn’t costed you another relationship but I’m not going to pretend that it’s okay, Darce. Have you completely forgotten about me? I’m your sister and you decided it was okay to go six months without answering e-mails or even to think to write me?

I don’t know if I’m more hurt or pissed off or an ugly combination of the two.

I love you, Darcy. I always will. I just miss you and you’ve missed so much. You realize that this is my last year of high school, right? I’ve needed you countless times and I… you’re not there. Maybe I’m being incredibly selfish right now but how do you expect me to react when you ignore me for six whole months?

Jamil sounds lovely, though and inspiring. Maybe you could always go visit him? When are you even planning on coming back? Is it just for a visit?

Ah, a boy. Let’s see… He’s close and you’ve got feelings for him but you don’t know what to do with them? Have you thought of telling him? You always seem to run with feelings get too close. I’m just a kid, but I’m in love and even though it’s really scary, it’s worth it. Maybe you should think about telling him how you feel instead of living with what ifs.

Yeah, dating. He’s happy, Darce. She brought back that light in his eyes that was lost after the divorce. Mom… mom is, uh, mom. You know how she is.

Are you kidding me? I’ve told you about Adam and Eli like 18 times now! Okay, one more time.

I met Adam through Eli. Who I met because he ran over my glasses and… this is a really long story. Are you asking me who they are? Seriously or…

Ugh, basically Adam is like a brother to me and I don’t know what I’d do without him and Eli is my boyfriend. We’ve been dating for 11-almost-12 months. :)

I love you, too. And hey, pay more attention to my e-mails. :P

tags:#email #Darcy

tags:#eclare #eli goldsworthy #clare edwards #Munro Chambers #aislinn paul #degrassi #my edit

therealjakemartin:

heythereitsclare replied to your post: Well apparently I’ve been living in my own little world….

Stranger.

not really such a stranger, i just saw you. But Iwannaplaywithyournewpuppy. :(